Balance

I think one of the hardest things is finding a balance between what I want and pleasing those around me. So often, I remind myself that making decisions to please others won't make me happy long term, but it is so hard to distinguish what truly brings me joy if so much of it comes from the people I love. I wish these things were easier, that they had definite and simpler answers. It sounds strange, I'm aware, but I always wish I could just skip over the next few years. Skip college and leaving and all of this awkward transition into adulthood. All of this time spent in the middle is so uncomfortable. There is so much emotion and past wrapped up in all of the decisions we make, and its influence is indescribable. If I could have one thing, it would be knowing if what I feel now is valid, if the decisions I am making are right and meaningful.